Sometimes before I take a shower, I'll look in the mirror and wonder, "What would life be like if I had a normal body?"

The doctor said that if they operated on my ribs, there's a chance I might lose my right arm for good. I wonder, is my arm worth it? I do like my arm... but I can't help but wonder what it would be like if it was successful...

For one kids won't have to whisper outloud about it...  hey kids I can still hear you if you're behind me btw....
I might be a bit more confident with which side I'm facing people with...
I might even get less people to underestimate me?
In addition, with all ribs back in place, I'll definitely be at least an inch taller!

Then again without it, I might be more focused about uh... my size thing >.>.

But again I really do like my right arm, so until my ribs actually do something to affect me dramatically, I think I'll keep them the way they are for now.

After all, people all over the world have complaints about their bodies right? Why should I be any different?
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Ugh I don't like fighting with Lenn. I don't know how, but somehow I got him on the defensive tonight. Maybe I should bake him a pie later this week...

Sooo it's Father's day and guess what? The family's going out to eat!

Now here's the twist!
Mom's side of the family invited us for dinner a few days ago, and just a while ago dad has announced to me that his side of the family is also inviting us for dinner!

Want a bigger twist?
Both sides of the family are planning to eat at the same restaurant! Weird right? Dad's side is scheduled for 5pm, while mom's side is scheduled an hour later at 6pm.

Seeing as both of them refuse to sit at the same table, this is how I see things:
-At 5pm Bro and I will go eat with dad's side while making sure to save enough room in our stomaches for the next meal at 6pm. That way we can enjoy time with both sides of the family without blowing our guts.

Now the only concern is what the rents will do since they now both know of each other's inevitable restaurant presence. Hopefully they'll just ignore each other as usual?... but then what will the rest of the family think? Ooooh the drama may be high tonight.

Happy father's day everyone >:I.
(please save me)

It's the first time the sun's been up for over 8 hours this summer...

And it makes me realize. I have no where to go to enjoy it. Sure there's the backyard... but it's kinda secluded. Last time I layed in the front yard, some people started calling for help thinking there was an unconscious or dead body >.>.

So aside from finding a summer-job and working on comics, it's time to find a place outside to hang with everyone!

Oh and register for the next fall semester too I guess.

...Should I post this on DA as well?...eh why not.

-"It makes you wonder how people can believe this evolution thing exists."

-" Religion is a set of beliefs, but what you wanted to go through today was talk about how a video wanted to mess with a people's faith in a messiah. I don't find that right to destroy because the filmakers had close-minded minds about the faith of Jesus Christ." (Referring to Family Guy's Jesus with guns in Passion of the Christ 2)

I'm not sure how, but we ended up talking about religion today. Both quotes above come from 2 different religious friends. The first friend kinda ran off before I could explain to him how evolution does exist, as there is clear evidence of that through humans and animals alike. I'm not sure what he'd say, but... to shun what's been proven because of religion seems a bit closed minded to me... which brings me to the next person.

Actually 2 friends in front of me discussed how parodying Jesus was taboo to them. I was only able to talk to one of them about that in detail later, so I'll be using the discussion with him as reference.

When I asked what was wrong with parodying Jesus, he simply replied that it was a closed minded thing to do as it twisted the image of Christ. Seeing as this is done in mostly every other parody out there, I refered him to parodies of figures such as Obama and Spider-man. He says they don't count because one is human and the other is fictional.

Apparantly the major figure of a religion is beyond all that? Apparantly they're so high up there that even mentioning their name in the wrong context is a sin?

The parody in my opinion didn't even seem offensive. Jesus as an action hero seems kinda cool actually... Now if he was put in a stripper in a bar, I'd understand it to be offensive. But apparantly all you need to do to mock Jesus, is to take him out of context.

I don't get it. I really don't get it. Why is it that people can laugh at themselves, but not the religion they cling to? Why is it that they can accept humans being placed in different contexts, but not this figure that they idolize?

Is it because he's that important to them? Is he really the pillar of their lives?... I can only guess, because honestly I don't understand.

One even said, "All we have to do is convert Mike."
...I don't want to be converted. My faith isn't built around Jesus, or God. As cheesy as it sounds, my faith is in my friends and myself.

I acknowledge there's a God, but I don't acknowledge him as my only savior. Some have said I should walk behind him. I say screw that, I'm going to walk with him. I'll even dare to walk ahead of him if he gets too slow. Does this make me a sinner? If it does I'll accept it.

In the end, what I can draw from this is: God and Jesus are not just important to these guys, they're what builds their lives. And I guess it's that build that they put their faith in to be too important to be even touched by foreign hands.

Have I learned anything? I'm not sure. I'm afraid that one day that I'll say something wrong that'll make me lose these important friends.

I just apologized to friend #2... he logged off without replying. I'll try apologizing to him in person tomorrow.

So mom just lost her part time job, meaning the only source of income now is.... dad's part-time job.

What does dad pay for with his income?... that's a good question.

I'm really wondering how my current life-style is going to change with this. I don't want to worry since that'd just cause more pressure for her to find work, but I just can't shake that piece of doubt in the back of my head.

I've been trying to apply for various jobs for the past while now, so far with no luck except for the occasional acting gig. Ohoh I did manage to save up $4000 for the 2010 road trip!... though I might have to borrow a bit from it now looking at the current situation.

College fees need to be considered as well (though dad did say he'd pay for next year's tuition), so I'm not sure what's going on any more.

Summary: Money is confusing and potentially worrysome.

I'm sure we'll manage somehow. Now I'm off to go murder this doubt before it eats me!

For iPulse meetings tonight, I got the chance to explore a fraternity house. When Opa first told us about taking us there, I just imagined a small apartment like thing. But as soon as we walked through those two wooden doors, it was like walking into a mini-mansion!

They had a lobby, a french room, and even a play room! It was like a haunted mansion without the ghosts!

While touring, I learned an important lesson:
"Watch where you lean."

See see while on the upper floor where the bedrooms are, Opa took L into his fraternity brothers' room for this chicken party thing. During this time, I decided to wait outside by leaning on a random door. Bad move.

Turns out the door wasn't actually closed properly, so as a result my weight pushes it open... and turns out it's a girl's room. An occupied girl's room. So I jumped up apologizing, and pulled the door close as fast as I could (with a little help with a push from the other side).

Well, that's another lesson learned with the help of another comic-like experience. Till next time~!
Remember to watch where you lean!

Just got the MC for that midterm back... barely passed. Now just waiting for the short answer results.

Here's where I start to worry: Doing the math, unless I get an A on my finals or if by some slim chance I aced the short answer portion of that midterm, there's no way I'm passing this course.

So of course I'm studying my butt off, but honestly I'm not that confident in my testing skills. I'm tempted to ask if there's any extra credit I can do as well, but I want some advice before I go any further on that...

College veterans can help please?
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My calender gave me a scary quote today:
"We only ask for advice when we already know the answer but choose not to accept it."